Sai Rapture
The Ecstatic Journey of a Modern Day Gopi
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      • Lord Vishnu and Our Lady of the Cosmos
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      • Artsy Movie
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      • Sai Oracle: dreams, leelas, miracles, guidance and instruction
      • Sai Silhouette
      • Vibhuti footprints all over my heart
      • Sai Baba Dream, March 9, 2012
      • Heavenly Sai dream, 10/26/12
      • Goddess of the Rainbow
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      • Be Good, Do Good, See Good
      • Divine Sai Dream, 02/10/2013
      • Sai Baba Dream, 4/19/2013
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      • Shirdi Sai Baba Dream, 9-13-2013
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        • The Om heard at Lake Shrine, CA
      • See God in Everything, Sai dream, 1-5-14
      • How to remember your dreams
      • Incredible Sai Baba Dream, 02/03/14
      • Very Strange dream with Sai Baba, 2/13/2014
      • Swami Dream 02-26-14
      • Sai Dream, 4/21/2014
      • Ganesha Dream, 5/1/14
      • The Mysterious Cat
      • Sai Eyes Dream & Leela, 5/20/2014
      • Shiva dream and vision 6/14/2014
      • Om...Beautiful Baba dream, 7/9/2014
      • Kool dream, 7-24--14
      • Amazing Sai spiritual experience 8/28/14
      • Mystical Prayer Leela 9/2/14
      • Divine Meditation, 10/02/2014
      • Cosmic Dive Dream, 10/24/14
      • We Gather the Glory!
      • Kundalini rising
      • sai bus driver
      • baby hercules
      • Sai Greenbay packer
      • Angels in the mist
      • The Moon Goddess Diana Dream
      • "I am going to turn on your Soul!' - Dream
      • Jai Baba Sai Baba dream, 02/11/2015
      • Sea God Dream, 03/01/2015
      • Vibhuti dream 03-10-15
      • Sai Surya Meditations
      • Holy Hand of Sai Meditation, 12/26/15
      • PRESENT MOMENT BLISS
      • Where my Devotees are Gathered There I Am
      • Transcending the Scene
      • Sai Darshan Dream, 04/27/15
      • Swami Please come, 05/15/2015
      • Sai Peacenik Leela
      • Chasing Swami Dream 06/20/15
      • Patty The Vet Matters
      • The Mysterious Double Astral Body
      • Ocean of Milk Lord Sai
      • Hari Om
      • THE CELESTIAL OCEAN
      • Krishna Madhava
      • Val Anderson ~ Swami's Beautiful Leela
      • Love One Another As I Have Loved You
      • Sathya Sai Baba Avatar Declaration Day
      • The Holy Spirit
      • Divine Swami Dream, 01/24/16
      • Nectarine Swami Dream, 11/26/2016
      • Sri Durga Devi Hears our Prayers
      • The Lord's Name is sweeter than His Form
      • You become Baby One With Me
      • Sairam
      • Sathya Sai Baba Darshan dream, 8/21/2016
    • I Am Sai Meditation
    • Courting the Presence of Sathya Sai Baba Meditation
    • Courting the Presence of Sai Avatar Part 2
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  • Ethereal Gardens
    • Sonya ki Poems
    • Sonya Ki Poetry Video ~ Lou
    • Ecstatic Love Poems By Sonya Ki
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    • Heart Kiss ~ Ecstatic Poetry recording
    • Lotus Nectar ~ Audio/Visual Poetry recording
    • PURCHASE ORIGINAL ART WORK
    • Mirabai Poems
    • Spirit of Kabir
    • Rumi Ruminations
    • A New Year's Prayer
    • The Mystical Poems of St. John of the Cross
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    • Chakra Bath
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    • A Surpise Law of Healing
    • Manna: Man does not live by bread alone
    • God Speaks in Mysterious Ways
    • Shiva Shakti
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    • Love is the way to God
    • THE EVERLASTING LIGHT
    • Sai Baba's Miracle cure - Ron Mead
    • Raising your vibrations >
      • The Placebo Effect
      • Deathbed Visions By Beverly McLean
    • Sweet Speech
    • MANDALA >
      • God creating with universe with Om cartoon (taken from internet)
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      • SSE Rules
      • Heavenly Sai Prayer
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      • Confessions of a Couch Potato
    • How Does One Reconnect to Swami Within - Talk by Dr. Srikanth Sola
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    • David's Leela Birthday, 8/16/2016
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    • Compassionate Communication #2
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    • Compassionate Communication #6
    • Compassionate Communication #7: The Jack and Geraldine Show
    • ComPassionate Communication #8: Jack & Geraldine: The 4 Choices
    • How to Save your Marriage- a Compassionate Communication Special
    • The Power of Recognizing our Needs
    • What is Empathy Anyway?
    • Pay It Forward
  • ANTI-AMA AYURVEDIC WISDOM
  • Chapel of Love & Music
    • Chapel of Love and Music
    • Swami singing Kodanda Rama
    • My Too Sweet Lord
    • Sai Mata Pita
    • Ganesha Sharanam
    • Be Still My Soul
    • My Eyes are forever seeing Your form
    • Joyful Joyful we adore Thee
    • My Prayer
    • Daya Sudha
    • Let our hearts reflect your love Lord duet- Sonya ki & David
    • Sai Unchained melody (Cover)
    • AKHANDA JYOTI JALAO
    • Come Sai Lord Incarnate~Happy Birthday!
    • Madhusudana
    • HOW GREAT THOU ART
    • All Hail The Power Of Sai Baba's Name
    • MY EYES ARE FOREVER SEEING YOUR FORM VIDEO
    • I Offer myself to Thee
    • Swami You send me
    • Blackbird rising
    • I will follow Sai - audio
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    • MY SAI AMOUR
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    • Love is My Form
    • Love is My Form ~ Part 2
    • GOD IS AN AWESOME GOD
    • Jaya Jagadeesha Hare
    • O Beautiful!
    • Prem Amritha
    • Hanuman Chant
    • JAYA JAYA JAYA AMBE
    • Without Singing to the Lord
    • Ceiling on Desires Bhajan by Renu Gidoomal
    • Prayer of a Sai Child
    • Down Blue Jay Way
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    • Will you Love the Poor*
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  • About me
  • Heavenly sai prayer 2
  • Sing, Sing for Swami dream 06/06/15
  • mala
  • Art for the Soul
  • Untitled
  • Colombe Kendra
  • Grace of the Lord
  • ADHIKA BASHINCHU
  • Divine Messenger
  • Why fear When I Am Here
  • I Surrender to you Baba
  • THIS LAND IS YOUR LAND, THIS LAND IS MY LAND
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  • Om Sri Sathya Sai Baba
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  • A flower from my lips to Yours, Sai
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  • I Am God
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  • A Song for you
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  • GOLDEN AGE OF SAI
  • SWAMI AND AYURVEDA
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  • The Power of God
  • Swami Dream, 02-05-2018
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  • Jagan Mati Shakti Durge
  • Sai! Our Beloved Avatar
  • Sai Temple Text - Good Company
  • Sai Temple Text - Human Life is Sacred
  • Sai Temple Text - The Divine Presence
  • Sai Days
  • Glories Of Our Jesus Christ
  • Sai Temple Text - Good Character Blossoms
  • Baba's Devotees Love Him So Enduring
  • Temple Text - The Eternal Path
  • One
  • Sai Temple Text - Serving Hearts
  • Sai Bilva Leaf Leela
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  • Sai Temple Text - "Who is your true friend?"
  • Sai Temple Text- The Purpose of Life
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Om Sai Ram
I am thrilled to share the news that an excerpt from my book Sai Rapture, The Ecstatic Journey of a Modern Day Gopi has been included in the final print copy of the Sathya Sai Newsletter, USA, Vol 36, No 6. Nov/Dec 2012, page 21. The Newsletter will continue in an online format. Thank you beloved Swami, You are so wonderful!
The following is a copy of this page:

FAITH: A FLOWER AT HIS FEET


“Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen.” -Hebrews 11:1

Swami is our unfailing support and anchor in life. With Baba's grace all things are possible. In 2003, I had just returned from a six month stay at Sathya Sai Baba's ashram in Puttaparthi India. Although my ex-husband and I had divorced in 2001, there were still many financial ties between us that needed to be resolved. Until my return from India, I had been too emotionally upset to face these challenges clearly. My stay with Baba gave me the courage and strength that I needed to begin picking up the pieces of my life.

After the 2003 sojourn, I went directly to Florida where my parents lived. From there I started to address the financial baggage that had to be settled between my ex-husband and myself. First, we owned a house in common and property in Arkansas. Also, he was still in the house, and we had a joint checking account, as well as a lot of credit cards. It was really a terrible mess, but something that had to be faced and straightened out. I stayed with my parents for six months.

During that time, I began looking for a lot in Palm Bay to build a home on. The prices of lots were astronomical and climbing daily. I kept searching and couldn't find anything remotely reasonable. At one point I said to Swami, “Well, maybe you don't want me to live here,” and surrendered my search.

Shortly after that inner conversation, a lot across from my parents' house sprang up for sale. It was a cleared quarter- acre lot. I immediately called the owner and we arranged to meet. He wanted to sell the lot for $11,500 —  unheard of in this area; as most uncleared lots were selling for $18,000 - $20,000! I jumped on it, and using a small personal savings, was able to purchase the lot. My sister and her family encouraged me to look for builders. I found a good local builder and set about making plans to have my new home built. Meanwhile, the marital residence in Arkansas needed to be repaired and sold. I took a trip there to finish that business.

My ex-husband had always handled our bills and finances. When I started looking at the credit records, I realized that we were in enormous credit card debt. I discussed this with him, and he said he couldn't help financially with any of this shared debt, because he had accumulated his own personal debt. So since I was the primary credit card signer, it was all on me (and Baba).

I had another inner conversation with Sai. Laughing, I said, “Swami, well if I'm going to the poor house, it's all right as long as you are with me!”

Not too long after this spiritual conversation, I received notification that a dear friend of mine from New York had passed away leaving me a good sum of money. I went to NY and conducted his funeral arrangements. The inheritance I received was enough to pay off half the joint debt, freeing me to get my finances in better order. The only thing left was to sell the house in Arkansas.

Meanwhile, construction work on my new house in Florida was scheduled to begin, although there were a lot of delays due to building permits, etc. The Arkansas house was on the market but weeks went by with no offers.

Then in June 2004, Swami came to me in an exceptional and revealing dream. My ex-husband and I were with Swami. Swami was answering our questions. My ex kept complaining that nothing was working out for him; he was going through hard times and couldn't understand why. He said to Sai, “I am totally focused on God, loving and serving, and I haven't caused pain to anyone.” Swami looked at me and said, “No unseen pain.” I replied, “Yes Swami he has caused me a lot of emotional pain.” Then Swami turned his attention on me. He talked affectionately to me about a lot of things. I can't remember all the details.

I remember He placed his hands over my eyes and said, “Look, I am going to give you a whole new house, and a whole new life.” I could see a vision of a house and a partial view of the inside of the house. I laid my head on Swami's holy chest saying repeatedly how much I loved Him. He clasped me close and whispered in my ears, over and over...“If you Love Me Say My Name ...” I responded bubbling with ecstasy, but the words were peculiarly difficult to pronounce. With great effort I exclaimed, “Om Sai Ram! Om Sai Ram!” When I awoke, I felt as if I had been transported to the highest heavens. I felt reassured that the house would sell. But the testing wasn't quite over yet.

Due to summer hurricanes, work on the Florida house was delayed and not completed for five more months, until November 2004. At the end of October, the Arkansas house still was not sold. I went to visit a friend in North Carolina and remember walking downtown, feeling very concerned. “Swami,” I said earnestly, “You told me you would give me a new home, I just need to have total faith!” Shortly after this inner conversation, I saw a little gift shop and felt drawn to go in. An Indian sales lady approached me trying to get me to buy some dresses. I told her that I had plenty of clothing from a trip to India and really didn't need anymore. She asked, “Where did you go in India?” When I mentioned Sai Baba's Ashram, she screamed, “Sai Ram!” and grabbed me, hugging me excitedly. As you can tell she was also was a Sai devotee.
I felt this was a good omen and that something really blessed was coming.

Sure enough, that same day, I received a call from my realtor in Arkansas. An offer had been made on the house, and the buyer wanted to close in three weeks on — November 23, Sai Baba's Birthday! My house under construction in Florida was scheduled to close on the 22nd of November, but I was able to delay its closing until the 29th. The house in Arkansas did sell on November 23, 2004. Needless to say, Swami made good on His promise. God is so great!

Keep your faith firm, irrespective of whether your desires are fulfilled. Preserve your faith carefully. Faith can work wonders. It can make a blind person see; a dumb speak. Do not at all doubt the power of faith. Some incidents happening in this world may shake your faith in God. But, if you hold on to your faith firmly you can boldly face any situation.  — Sri Sathya Sai Baba, SSS17:13, May 20, 1984

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